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So this is my first blog post.  This is the first thing that someone will read if they are bored at work and stumble upon my blog and decide to go all the way back to the beginning and start reading.  Hopefully, it is 2010 when they are doing this so they will have years of good stuff to read through and they can waste a good afternoon at work doing it.  (Hi if this is you! Future people!  COOL.)

I’ve had a lot of mental “yea… yea!  you totally should write a blog!” moments in the past year, but I’ve never taken the plunge.  This is because I’ve had lots of reservations about privacy, what to write about, what not to write about, etc.  I think what I have decided is that… I have to be honest in order to make this a compelling, true-to-life, living, breathing blog.  I do.  And I also have to let my friends and family know that I am writing it.  So this means that, if you are reading this, and you are a friend or family, chances are you will get talked about at some point and/or read about something you really really didn’t want to know about me.  Don’t worry, I’ll change your names and all that, but you will probably know it is you.  And I will try to provide warnings if I am going to write about sex or something and you are my brother or dad or uncle and you might want to skip it (hi dad!)  But my overall policy is going to be to write about what I need to write about.  So just accept this disclaimer right now and we can all move on.  And, of course, TALK TO ME if you ever read something on here that really gets to you.  Please.

So I should probably mention that I am at a pretty average place in life right now.  My hope is that all those future people who read this will start here with my total HRMPH of a life and then read all the way through to me in 2010 and I will be so happy and probably skinny and most likely in love and just terribly successful and they will think WOW.  So let’s review my current state:

#1 thing that is going right:  My career.  I’ll probably write a lot about this because I’m pretty young for my age to be working at a Fortune 500 company and this causes a lot of hilarity.  One could say I am pretty successful on the job front, compared to other 23 year old women.  I’m good at making old people think I am smart and have good ideas.  Maybe I do have good ideas… who knows.

#1 thing that is going wrong:  Dating.  I don’t date.  I don’t really think about dating.  When men smile at me, I make this scared/pinched/weird face and turn away out of fear.  I haven’t had a boyfriend in… some time.  Like years or something.  Well, that’s not true, I think there have been a few weekish flings, but not like a boyfriendboyfriend or anything.  I’ve never even been in love, if you can believe that.  OK, so now that you know this about me we should note… this is not OK.  Not at all.  I fully plan on getting married some day.  Clearly, this will not happen if I continue on this path.  Dating zero people from ages 19-23 is not ever OK.  Ever.  This blog will track me trying to change that.

There is a lot more going wrong right now, including a stupid mistake I made recently by signing onto a new lease thinking I could break my old one… but it didn’t happen that way.  So now I am in a crunch to find someone to rent it and until I do, I am stuck paying two rents.  This is one of those situations that has me shooting up in bed at night gasping out of stress.  Every time I think about it, my heart does this little shuddering, sinking thing… it’s not fun.  But you know what, I made a mistake and am just hoping and praying that I will find a solution.  Hope and pray with me, will ya?  Also, there is a lot more going right that I need to focus on than stupid money problems (…but seriously, it is a huge stress on my life right now so HOPE and PRAY dammit.)

There is so much I want to write about!  I have so many ideas!  I want you to know me!  SHARING!  But don’t worry, I will get to everything.  Just keep reading.

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